Tag: Grief

WGME Reported “‘They Murdered My Son in Cold Blood:’ [Maine] Parents Upset After Police Shooting Ruled Justified” (2024)

March 21, 2024

“A report released last week found the use of deadly force by police against a man from Rumford last year was justified. Shay McKenna was not supposed to have a gun. Police say he did. Shay McKenna’s parents say their son feared police would find and kill him. Shay McKenna was out on bail, living … More WGME Reported “‘They Murdered My Son in Cold Blood:’ [Maine] Parents Upset After Police Shooting Ruled Justified” (2024)

“I Just Want to Disappear”: The End Result of a Lifetime of Dehumanization and Abuse (2024)

February 5, 2024

Waiting for darknessWhy doesn’t anybody see nowDeafened by silenceWhy doesn’t anybody hear I’m waiting for darkness Playing with fireBut they’re screaming when they’re burned, yeahOut of the sunlightHasn’t anybody learned I know what they’ll findIt’s in their mindIt’s what they want to seeSpare me from the lightHere comes the nightAnd here I’ll stay Waiting for … More “I Just Want to Disappear”: The End Result of a Lifetime of Dehumanization and Abuse (2024)

Dempsey Challenge 5K in Honor of My Late Father William R. Stowell (2015)

October 18, 2015

I’ve been wanting to do a 5K for quite some time but because of Post Traumatic Stress never found the courage to follow through until my friends Valari and Xandy inspired me. Over the years, I watched them collect money for the Dempsey Challenge 5K, talk about how the experience inspires them, and get their … More Dempsey Challenge 5K in Honor of My Late Father William R. Stowell (2015)

Traumatized by Criminals, Toxic Military Leaders, & My Father’s Sudden Death, Then Stop Lossed, Poisoned with Lead, and Suicidal in the Air Force… But I’m Not a “Real” Veteran (2015)

September 16, 2015

Like a lot of Americans, I have a hard time around 9/11. It’s hard to even write about it but I am going to push through the fear. Like Eleanor Roosevelt has been quoted: “Courage is more exhilarating than fear and in the long run it is easier.” (As I take deep breaths.) This statement … More Traumatized by Criminals, Toxic Military Leaders, & My Father’s Sudden Death, Then Stop Lossed, Poisoned with Lead, and Suicidal in the Air Force… But I’m Not a “Real” Veteran (2015)

Navigating Life After Losing a Parent: Jennifer, Lee, Onyx and Sarge Visit William R. Stowell’s Gravesite on the 12th Anniversary of Death (September 14, 2013)

September 14, 2013

At thirty, you think you still have time. Time to ask more questions. Time to sit a little longer at the kitchen table. Time to notice the small things—like how your father always paused before answering, not because he didn’t know what to say, but because he wanted to say it right. You don’t expect … More Navigating Life After Losing a Parent: Jennifer, Lee, Onyx and Sarge Visit William R. Stowell’s Gravesite on the 12th Anniversary of Death (September 14, 2013)

The Power of Shared Memories: Jennifer and Lee Celebrate William R. Stowell’s Birthday at Sunday River Ski Resort in Newry, Maine (March 21, 2013)

March 21, 2013

There are dates that don’t pass quietly. They return each year with weight—carrying memory, love, and a kind of ache that never really leaves. My dad’s birthday is one of those days. In 2013, Lee and I chose not to spend it in silence or avoidance. Instead, we drove to Sunday River Ski Resort in … More The Power of Shared Memories: Jennifer and Lee Celebrate William R. Stowell’s Birthday at Sunday River Ski Resort in Newry, Maine (March 21, 2013)

The Emotional Toll of Military Injustice: No Justice, Retaliation, Zero Healthcare, Toxic Military Leadership, & CPTSD (2010)

April 6, 2010

Ok, so maybe you traveled with Lee and is Lee’s slip for fuel that went into your rental car.Starting to understand. Need to make this clear.Send Lee’s voucher to TSgt _____ also.Follow up with a phone call. I need you to report to me on Saturday 10 April 0930 Delta Victor, Lt Col Comments: If … More The Emotional Toll of Military Injustice: No Justice, Retaliation, Zero Healthcare, Toxic Military Leadership, & CPTSD (2010)