Dear Mass Air National Guard, You Poisoned Me With Lead… But You Already Knew That (2025)

Dear Mass Air National Guard, You poisoned me with lead and made me lose more than twenty years of my life. I will spend the rest of my life making sure every Air National Guard member in the entire country understands the dangers of lead poisoning and how to treat it. I am a case … More Dear Mass Air National Guard, You Poisoned Me With Lead… But You Already Knew That (2025)

Stop Lossed on an EPA Superfund Site: How Chronic Stress Hid the Damage Until It Was Almost Too Late (2024)

Don’t talk to me about cancer unless you wanna witness a meltdown. Cancer, my dad’s death, and the way my “family” and the U.S. military treated me are my biggest triggers. I realize most people don’t give a f*ck what I have been through. But I’m going to make sure future recruits understand exactly what … More Stop Lossed on an EPA Superfund Site: How Chronic Stress Hid the Damage Until It Was Almost Too Late (2024)

“I Just Want to Disappear”: The End Result of a Lifetime of Dehumanization and Abuse (2024)

Ozzy Osbourne, Waiting for Darkness, Bark at the Moon “I just want to disappear” are the last words I said to medical personnel and those same words would end my Air Force career for good. I’m not exactly sure where to start as I’ve never put words to any of this before but here goes. … More “I Just Want to Disappear”: The End Result of a Lifetime of Dehumanization and Abuse (2024)

Traumatized by Criminals, Toxic Military Leaders, & My Father’s Sudden Death, Then Stop Lossed, Poisoned with Lead, and Suicidal in the Air Force… But I’m Not a “Real” Veteran (2015)

Like a lot of Americans, I have a hard time around 9/11. It’s hard to even write about it but I am going to push through the fear. Like Eleanor Roosevelt has been quoted: “Courage is more exhilarating than fear and in the long run it is easier.” (As I take deep breaths.) This statement … More Traumatized by Criminals, Toxic Military Leaders, & My Father’s Sudden Death, Then Stop Lossed, Poisoned with Lead, and Suicidal in the Air Force… But I’m Not a “Real” Veteran (2015)

Lt. Joe Kenda: “Life is Random”

I first heard the phrase “Life is Random” while watching Lt. Joe Kenda’s Homicide Hunter series on Investigation Discovery. Lt. Kenda was referring to a 1994 case out of Colorado Springs, Colorado he had investigated. A recently discharged Fort Carson Army soldier was left bleeding to death in an apartment building parking lot after being stabbed … More Lt. Joe Kenda: “Life is Random”