Tag: 265th CBCS

Stop Lossed on an EPA Superfund Site: How Chronic Stress Hid the Damage Until It Was Almost Too Late (2024)

March 8, 2024

Don’t talk to me about cancer unless you wanna witness a meltdown. Cancer, my dad’s death, and the way my “family” and the U.S. military treated me are my biggest triggers. I realize most people don’t give a f*ck what I have been through. But I’m going to make sure future recruits understand exactly what … More Stop Lossed on an EPA Superfund Site: How Chronic Stress Hid the Damage Until It Was Almost Too Late (2024)

“I Just Want to Disappear”: The End Result of a Lifetime of Dehumanization and Abuse (2024)

February 5, 2024

Ozzy Osbourne, Waiting for Darkness, Bark at the Moon “I just want to disappear” are the last words I said to medical personnel and those same words would end my Air Force career for good. I’m not exactly sure where to start as I’ve never put words to any of this before but here goes. … More “I Just Want to Disappear”: The End Result of a Lifetime of Dehumanization and Abuse (2024)

Traumatized by Criminals, Toxic Military Leaders, & My Father’s Sudden Death, Then Stop Lossed, Poisoned with Lead, and Suicidal in the Air Force… But I’m Not a “Real” Veteran (2015)

September 16, 2015

Like a lot of Americans, I have a hard time around 9/11. It’s hard to even write about it but I am going to push through the fear. Like Eleanor Roosevelt has been quoted: “Courage is more exhilarating than fear and in the long run it is easier.” (As I take deep breaths.) This statement … More Traumatized by Criminals, Toxic Military Leaders, & My Father’s Sudden Death, Then Stop Lossed, Poisoned with Lead, and Suicidal in the Air Force… But I’m Not a “Real” Veteran (2015)

The Impact of Toxic Military Leadership: Lower Enlisted Airman Runs for Her Life, Transfers to Another State to Prevent Suicide (2001)

February 3, 2001

It’s hard to look at this picture now because the sadness and disappointment was so visible. I had these photos taken for a headshot because I was trying to escape the Combat Communications Squadron I was assigned to. I was selected to teach Airman Leadership School and my plan was to be an instructor while … More The Impact of Toxic Military Leadership: Lower Enlisted Airman Runs for Her Life, Transfers to Another State to Prevent Suicide (2001)