Tag: Hostile Work Environment

“I Just Want to Disappear”: The End Result of a Lifetime of Dehumanization and Abuse (2024)

February 5, 2024

Ozzy Osbourne, Waiting for Darkness, Bark at the Moon “I just want to disappear” are the last words I said to medical personnel and those same words would end my Air Force career for good. I’m not exactly sure where to start as I’ve never put words to any of this before but here goes. … More “I Just Want to Disappear”: The End Result of a Lifetime of Dehumanization and Abuse (2024)

Traumatized by Criminals, Toxic Military Leaders, & My Father’s Sudden Death, Then Stop Lossed, Poisoned with Lead, and Suicidal in the Air Force… But I’m Not a “Real” Veteran (2015)

September 16, 2015

Like a lot of Americans, I have a hard time around 9/11. It’s hard to even write about it but I am going to push through the fear. Like Eleanor Roosevelt has been quoted: “Courage is more exhilarating than fear and in the long run it is easier.” (As I take deep breaths.) This statement … More Traumatized by Criminals, Toxic Military Leaders, & My Father’s Sudden Death, Then Stop Lossed, Poisoned with Lead, and Suicidal in the Air Force… But I’m Not a “Real” Veteran (2015)

Workplace Betrayal & Ostracism: A Letter to the Commander Explaining How Toxic Military Leaders Negatively Impact CPTSD (2010)

August 4, 2010

Formal Letter to 101st Air Refueling Wing Leadership After Psychological Collapse on Active Duty Orders & Medical Retirement (July 29, 2011) Brief Synopsis: After getting caught up on some e-mails during the medical retirement process between 2009-2012, Lee and I would come to realize that our Commander was a real pr*ck. He didn’t give two f*cks … More Workplace Betrayal & Ostracism: A Letter to the Commander Explaining How Toxic Military Leaders Negatively Impact CPTSD (2010)