“I Just Want to Disappear”: The End Result of a Lifetime of Dehumanization and Abuse “I just want to disappear” are the last words I said to medical personnel and those same words would end my Air Force career for good. I’m not exactly sure where to start as I’ve never put words to any … More The Desire to Not Exist is Not the Same As Wanting to Die (2025)
Prior to treatment this is what the abuse of parents, school bullies, criminals one is trapped with, toxic military leaders, an abusive ex-wife, crooked cops, & finally toxic “veteran advocates” who prioritized popularity over people’s lives did to us. It beat our souls down and gave us chronic illness. Now we are well enough to … More Abusers Think They Control Fate… But It Just Makes Their Hands Messier & Even More Traceable (2024)
MST = Military Sexual Trauma RELATED STORIES: Maine Newspaper & Police Department Leaders Assist Documented Abusive Police Officer in Dehumanization of Disabled Veterans and Kids During a Mental Health Crisis Surviving Injustice: Disabled Veterans Battling to Overcome a Defamatory Article in a Rural Maine Newspaper HIGHLIGHTS: CHILDHOOD TRAUMA AND PARENTAL ALIENATION: My life has been nothing but … More “Sexual Assault Advocates” Use Defamatory Newspaper Article & the Small Town Cop’s Lame AF Narrative to Bounce Medically Retired Service Members Out of MST Advocacy (2024)
RELATED STORIES: Maine Newspaper & Police Department Leaders Assist Documented Abusive Police Officer in Dehumanization of Disabled Veterans and Kids During a Mental Health Crisis “Veteran Advocates” Use Defamatory Newspaper Article & the Cops Who Created the Narrative to Bounce Medically Retired Disabled Veterans Out of the Washington DC Game Brief Synopsis: While we were living in … More Surviving Injustice: Disabled Veterans Battling to Overcome a Defamatory Article in a Rural Maine Newspaper (2024)
Notice the media don’t appear to care at all about the man with mental illness who just got slammed by a police car and is probably in complete shock. He’s now dead but the “deputy was injured.” The “authorities” and the media work together to dehumanize citizens with disabilities. It keeps both of them employed. … More Maine Police Shootings of Individuals with Mental Illness: Recent Incidents and Concerns (2024)
We sold the house on September 2, 2022 and headed first to Tennessee so Lee could see his kids and meet his grandkids. We were both really sick during the entire home selling process and when we drove across the country. We went out of our way to spend time with Lee’s family before making … More Life After Maine: Our Move to Imperial Beach (2022)
320 Changes Direction – The Campaign to Change Direction In honor of Chester Bennington, show you know The Five Signs #MakeChesterProud Mental health stigma kills. The passing of Chester Bennington was a devastating blow to those of us who found comfort in his words. Chester, you didn’t know this but you helped me. You helped … More Stamp Out Stigma: #BeTheChange (2018)
This past week my husband (also a veteran) and I attended the VA New England Summer Sports Clinic hosted by the VA Boston Healthcare System. The event was held in Providence, Rhode Island. Although we were not sure what to expect, we were willing to give it a try because the event featured sporting activities. … More VA New England Summer Sports Clinic 2016, Providence, Rhode Island
Formal Letter to 101st Air Refueling Wing Leadership After Psychological Collapse on Active Duty Orders & Medical Retirement (July 29, 2011) Brief Synopsis: After getting caught up on some e-mails during the medical retirement process between 2009-2012, Lee and I would come to realize that our Commander was a real pr*ck. He didn’t give two f*cks … More Workplace Betrayal & Ostracism: A Letter to the Commander Explaining How Toxic Military Leaders Negatively Impact CPTSD (2010)
Jennifer and Lee 