Tag: 2001

“I Just Want to Disappear”: The End Result of a Lifetime of Dehumanization and Abuse (2024)

February 5, 2024

Waiting for darknessWhy doesn’t anybody see nowDeafened by silenceWhy doesn’t anybody hear I’m waiting for darkness Playing with fireBut they’re screaming when they’re burned, yeahOut of the sunlightHasn’t anybody learned I know what they’ll findIt’s in their mindIt’s what they want to seeSpare me from the lightHere comes the nightAnd here I’ll stay Waiting for … More “I Just Want to Disappear”: The End Result of a Lifetime of Dehumanization and Abuse (2024)

Traumatized by Criminals, Toxic Military Leaders, & My Father’s Sudden Death, Then Stop Lossed, Poisoned with Lead, and Suicidal in the Air Force… But I’m Not a “Real” Veteran (2015)

September 16, 2015

Like a lot of Americans, I have a hard time around 9/11. It’s hard to even write about it but I am going to push through the fear. Like Eleanor Roosevelt has been quoted: “Courage is more exhilarating than fear and in the long run it is easier.” (As I take deep breaths.) This statement … More Traumatized by Criminals, Toxic Military Leaders, & My Father’s Sudden Death, Then Stop Lossed, Poisoned with Lead, and Suicidal in the Air Force… But I’m Not a “Real” Veteran (2015)

“My Last Visit with Bill” by Peter Stowell (2001)

September 15, 2001

Not only was this week a sad one for the world with the worst attack on America’s soil in its history; it became somewhat sadder for me as my brother Bill gave his life to cancer earlier today. He had been ill for a couple years and struggled valiantly against the disease that relentlessly pursued … More “My Last Visit with Bill” by Peter Stowell (2001)

The Impact of Toxic Military Leadership: Lower Enlisted Airman Runs for Her Life, Transfers to Another State to Prevent Suicide (2001)

February 3, 2001

It’s hard to look at this picture now because the sadness and disappointment was so visible. I had these photos taken for a headshot because I was trying to escape the Combat Communications Squadron I was assigned to. I was selected to teach Airman Leadership School and my plan was to be an instructor while … More The Impact of Toxic Military Leadership: Lower Enlisted Airman Runs for Her Life, Transfers to Another State to Prevent Suicide (2001)