The Desire to Not Exist is Not the Same As Wanting to Die (2025)

“I Just Want to Disappear”: The End Result of a Lifetime of Dehumanization and Abuse “I just want to disappear” are the last words I said to medical personnel and those same words would end my Air Force career for good.  I’m not exactly sure where to start as I’ve never put words to any … More The Desire to Not Exist is Not the Same As Wanting to Die (2025)

Top 10 Posts on Jennifer and Lee (2024)

1. Military Injustice: Nowhere to Turn, Nowhere to Run, Nowhere to Hide; The Story of Kamisha Block and How U.S. Army Leadership Contributed to Her Death I was watching Investigation Discovery (ID) one night in 2018 when Forbidden Dying for Love came on the television. I was what you would consider an #IDAddict and I regularly watched the … More Top 10 Posts on Jennifer and Lee (2024)

What Really Happens When a Rape is Reported in the Military?

I am not a Amy Schumer fan by any stretch of the imagination especially after she sold herself out to the ‘feminists’ of today. She caved to the political pressure of the ‘women’s movement’ and lost my respect big time. Unfortunately, the movement has become one of all that matters is women and we don’t … More What Really Happens When a Rape is Reported in the Military?

Federal Government Overreach in America is Eviscerating Due Process (2016)

A federal appeals court recently overturned a decision that had favored Tom Brady of the New England Patriots. NFL Commissioner Roger Goodell’s intentions to suspend Tom Brady for four games for his alleged involvement in Deflategate will be upheld. When the first court overturned Goodell’s decision to suspend him due to the fact that due process … More Federal Government Overreach in America is Eviscerating Due Process (2016)

Prosecutor: Navy Petty Officer Rebecca Braswell Considered a Pure Sociopath (2016)

Sociopath: a person with antisocial personality disorder. Probably the most widely recognized personality disorder. A sociopath is often well liked because of their charm and high charisma, but they do not usually care about other people. They think mainly of themselves and often blame others for the things that they do. They have a complete … More Prosecutor: Navy Petty Officer Rebecca Braswell Considered a Pure Sociopath (2016)

The Barry Winchell Case Helped End the Don’t Ask Don’t Tell Policy in the Military (2016)

Vanity Fair Confidential featured an episode called Don’t Ask Don’t Kill on Investigation Discovery highlighting the case of Army Pfc Barry Winchell at Fort Campbell, Kentucky in 1999. Winchell was bludgeoned to death by a fellow soldier while he lay asleep in his cot on July 5 in the barracks. Winchell was described by his friends as someone … More The Barry Winchell Case Helped End the Don’t Ask Don’t Tell Policy in the Military (2016)

Army Soldier Kelli Bordeaux Murdered by Sexual Predator on Sex Offender Registry List

Swamp Murders on Investigation Discovery featured the murder of Kelli Bordeaux, US Army soldier stationed at Fort Bragg, North Carolina. We learned that in 2012 she went missing after visiting the Froggy Bottoms bar in Fayetteville, North Carolina. The last person to see her alive was Nick Holbert, a man considered a sexual predator and … More Army Soldier Kelli Bordeaux Murdered by Sexual Predator on Sex Offender Registry List

Investigation Discovery Validated Me and Gave Me Purpose

I am an #IDAddict. I love Investigation Discovery. The reason I love ID is because the law enforcement officials are passionately solving the cases they have been presented with, always with justice in mind for the victim and/or family. I watch all the ID shows.  Initially, my crime show addiction started with Law and Order, Law and Order … More Investigation Discovery Validated Me and Gave Me Purpose

Traumatized by Criminals, Toxic Military Leaders, & My Father’s Sudden Death, Then Stop Lossed, Poisoned with Lead, and Suicidal in the Air Force… But I’m Not a “Real” Veteran (2015)

Like a lot of Americans, I have a hard time around 9/11. It’s hard to even write about it but I am going to push through the fear. Like Eleanor Roosevelt has been quoted: “Courage is more exhilarating than fear and in the long run it is easier.” (As I take deep breaths.) This statement … More Traumatized by Criminals, Toxic Military Leaders, & My Father’s Sudden Death, Then Stop Lossed, Poisoned with Lead, and Suicidal in the Air Force… But I’m Not a “Real” Veteran (2015)

Military Lacks Uniform Reporting & After Care Procedures for Victims of Sexual Assault (2014)

GOAL: Create national/uniform reporting standards that are supportive of military members who are victims of crime. Their safety, health, rights, and career are equally as important as the rights of the accused. Military Culture (closed institution) 1. Empower all servicemembers to report violent crimes to civilian authorities (they actually have criminal databases, procedures for preserving … More Military Lacks Uniform Reporting & After Care Procedures for Victims of Sexual Assault (2014)